{"id":196,"date":"2021-06-21T03:03:03","date_gmt":"2021-06-21T02:03:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/?p=196"},"modified":"2021-06-21T03:04:55","modified_gmt":"2021-06-21T02:04:55","slug":"50-and-embarrassed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/2021\/06\/21\/50-and-embarrassed\/","title":{"rendered":"50 and Embarrassed"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I just turned 50 years old a couple of months ago. It&#8217;s very embarrassing being this age and still not at a place where I feel I should be in my life and career.<\/p>\n<p>Especially the career. As much as I love the thought of having an opportunity to catch up with former co-workers that I worked with in the early years of my IT journey, at the same time I do not want to talk to them at all because of my career situation being so embarrassing, and it just highlights how much of a failure I am. Not to mention, there they are, all accomplished and confident, why would they want to talk to someone who is insecure and traumatized and a complete fucking mess who apparently didn&#8217;t do well for himself? All of them are accomplished system administrators of some sort now, and here I am, still just a tech support rep, despite having several years of experience as a system administrator across multiple platforms.<\/p>\n<p>Yes, here I am, still stuck in a situation that I cannot easily escape without seriously affecting my quality of life. Yet remaining in this situation is slowly killing me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I just turned 50 years old a couple of months ago. It&#8217;s very embarrassing being this age and still not&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/196"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=196"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/196\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":199,"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/196\/revisions\/199"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=196"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=196"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/beyond-redemption.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=196"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}